isnt it amazing how as we grow up and change inside the things we surround our selves with change as well? i started going to two bible studys this fall and as i have it seems that my "friends" are drifting further and further away, and when we talk its just a dead end conversation that after just two mintues it seems like there is nothing left to say, with one bible study i am making new friends and could easily stick around after we get done and talk for hours. i have been finding myself wanting to further my self more and more from the past and hold on tight to the future. does that make me petty? i have no clue but i do know that i am much happier when im distancing myself from the "drama" of some peoples lives, as im sitting here looking at my facebook friends list i look at who is on there and i really think sometimes that it would be so easy to just delete them off there and not ever look back, but then again what if one status i share about God or one bible verse will be enough to help them out.
then i look at another friend who i have been talking to and really been feeling like i need to share about the lord to her, and i have again and again and again, i have told her how to not make mistakes i do, i really felt like i was getting some where and then BAM she throws in my face that i dont get the loneliness i have a ring on my finger and a man in my bed at night so i just dont get it.. she takes everything i have said to her and totally ignores me and rushes out of town to go meet a guy.. ugh i just dont get it! i know that satan is working just as hard to pull her away as i am to help her find the lord but oh man am i ever frustrated!!
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