How many times have you heard that? me i don't think i can count that high... while there has been times where i have simply opened mouth insert foot, i am learning to just stop think, and pray alot of the time before i speak... unless i am reacting.. then well its just fair game... but when we react does it ever do us any good when we speak out of anger?? honestly i don't think so.. i don't think that anyone walks away happy... i got to experience being on the receiving end of reactions.. and i still feel like a 10 ton truck ran over me and then backed up for another run... i felt as tho my feelings weren't valid... is that how i make people feel when i react? how do i make sure to not do that to some one? i know i can go 50 shades of crazy and i need to work on that try to get it down to at least 25.. but i cant believe how hurtful it was.. and honestly how do i move on from this point? do i ignore it and just go on as i planned or do i let the other person win and be defeated? i feel completely unwelcome in a place that honestly i should feel right at home... i am letting Satan win if i walk away right... or am i going against God's will if i stay.. this is where i am.. stuck between a rock and a hard place... i do know that moving forward i will be seeking guidance for myself only.. i can only pray for the other person.. that god will convict their heart and work on them... because i know that i cant change them.. i can change me... and this is what I'm doing
oh by the way.. I'm down about 6lbs after my scale saying i weighed 365 this morning!!! and no i have not made no bake cookies yet.. but the year is still young!
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